Archive for the ‘love’ Tag
crying like a baby in the arms of the lord
Filed under: christianity, diary, teaching, yoga | Tags: love, running, teacher training, TTC
Leave a Comment After a late run on the beach this night I feel at peace today. I felt a lot of sadness the last few days since my loved one is back in her home town and I am here and whatever I look at I see her in front of me but I can not physically touch her. I am participating in yoga teaching training in Austria next month and after that it is white space. It feels like a very big step to start to teach in a foreign language, German, right now and maybe this will change during the course. The biggest group I have taught in yoga was 8 people in India and the next step is to teach for a full class of 25-50 people. I know I should start this step by step but right now I cannot think about this as a compromise. I want to become a full time yoga teacher. There is no other option. Like a candle flame of concentrated light I am focusing on this. My whole body is trembling with the thought of throwing myself into this. Will I die ? Do I have to live in celibacy ? Up to now I have done yoga teaching on a voluntary basis. To live I need money to pay the bills and it feels natural to take this step. I do not know why it is such a big step to charge for a lesson. Maybe it is putting pressure on me to be professional in my teaching. To strictly divide up my private life and the yoga. It feels more like the yoga have been growing in me for years and now it wants to get out of my body and it want me to work as a transmitter. It feels like an explosion from within and I have no other option. I cannot explain in a logical way and it feels like a very lonely road since my old friends are not so interested in this. Yoga feels like something I have been hiding and now all of sudden I want to show the world. I am grateful for all the people who support me in this and you mean a lot to me !
love and violence
Filed under: Uncategorized | Tags: anger, death, fight, fighting, hockey, love, lust, sex, thai boxing
Leave a Comment Our fascination with violence and love is pretty interesting and do they have something in common ? I happened to see one of Oshos lectures where he said love and hate are the opposite sides of the same coin and that started my thinking. Today I got totally absorbed when I saw the Finnish player Ruutu tackle people in the NHL and just out of curiosity I looked up “NHL best” on you tube to see what the best is from nhl. I have to admit I was a bit surprised when a big fight came up instead of some Gretzky goals which would have been my first guess ( ” Unbelievable Hockey Fight” with close to 12 million is beating Gretzky almost 12 to 1 ). I am a fan of hockey and what really gets the emotions going is the tackles and the roughness. I watched the young Swedish team get beaten by the Canadian team in the world Junior Hockey Championships just some weeks ago and I was totally caught in the moment and I really thought that Canada did not play fair at all and the referee was bad. Now I look up some clips and I can clearly see that the Swedish goalkeeper really fell over easily. My emotions totally took over and sound judgement was put aside.I can just imagine how it is for the players on the ice. Almost all of us have come in contact with the fight or flight mechanism when we are in dark back alley and suspect somebody is following us or we see a horror movie on TV. the fight or fight mechanism is wired into our brains and our logical thinking is totally shut off when it comes into place. When our fight or flight response is activated a lot of chemicals ( for example adrenaline, noradrenaline and cortisol ) are released into our body and you could say that we get an altered state of being where all our daytime worries disappear and our only focus is on the object that caused this reaction. I cannot help but to find similarities to what we normally call love . the love between two persons which causes all our daily trouble to disappear and we focus only on the object of our love.
from wikipedia
“Lust is the initial passionate sexual desire that promotes mating, and involves the increased release of chemicals such as testosterone and estrogen. … Recent studies in neuroscience have indicated that as people fall in love, the brain consistently releases a certain set of chemicals, including pheromones, dopamine, norepinephrine, and serotonin, which act in a manner similar to amphetamines, stimulating the brain’s pleasure center and leading to side effects such as increased heart rate, loss of appetite and sleep, and an intense feeling of excitement. Research has indicated that this stage generally lasts from one and a half to three years”
Now both fight and flight and love states will disappear after some time and we are left with Withdrawal symptoms.
With this in mind I think it is rather confusing to say “you should love everyone” because it is something you will only do for a period. Maybe that is the reason why Buddhists use the word compassion instead ?
At an early age I got interested in Buddhism and the prince who left his kingdom in the search for truth. How can I apply this story to my own life ? to be able to sit I took up the study of yoga. Is there a contradiction between yoga and science ? Sure we can get a theoretical understanding through books, but without the experience we are stuck. Why is it so hard to practice non-violence when the mosquito is landing on my neck ?